So many good things are happening in my life right now. Things are going well with work, my kids are doing great with school and reaching so many milestones, and I have PWGF in my life showing me that my heart is still there and that it is possible to have feelings for someone again.
Now starts the year anniversary of so many events that were the darkest time in my life. BW had surgery and we found out that what they removed was the lung cancer but metastasized to her ribs. She went on a 'fun day out' with her mother and sisters and one of them treated her so poorly that I banned her from our home. She started a new form of chemo, a pill a day, and we were wondering if the side effects were worth it and why she was getting weaker each day.
A year ago we were still hanging on to the hope that she was going to get better. That she'd be there for Princess Middle Daughter and her prom. That she'd be there for all our children's life events and that some day we'd remember when things were so dark and give thanks that we got through it.
This was the beginning of the end. I worked, cleaned, managed her care, and figured that things would be better some day.
Things are better, but it is a life without Mary, and I never saw it coming.
I wrote all this just to say what has become my mantra...
Don't wait to live, really live, and don't assume you'll have tomorrow to say or do what should have been said or done today. If you love someone let them know now because this moment is the only guaranteed one that you'll have.
Posted by bbarton at January 29, 2007 03:54 PMHeidi - You're welcome and thanks for being my friend! :)
Posted by: Bob on January 30, 2007 09:24 AM
from everything that you have gone through this last year, I hear you loud and clear about not taking things for granted. i count my blessings each and everyday. i'm working on trying to show my gratitude more outwardly. thank you, Bob, for sharing.
Posted by: heidi on January 29, 2007 09:42 PM