It is nearly eight months since Mary passed away. At first, I could tell you how many days it had been since she died (242) and how that translated into weeks (34 weeks, 4 days). It bugged me when my Mom said that Mary had been gone for a month on February 2 instead of the 5th.
Now I find myself thinking in approximate months as in it has been almost 8 months since she died.
I'm really kind if dreading the next couple of months...Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's Eve. Those were her holidays and she loved that whole time of the year so much. She'd be making her plans right about now for what she was going to get everyone and how early was too early for the day after Thanksgiving Day sales.
I was a happy participant in the whirlwind of activity...Get the tree, put it up and do the lights, decorate outside. Those were all tasks that I gladly did but the things done for people, the things that made memories and everyone feel loved, that was all Mary.
The girls are excited about doing the shopping so it is mostly going to be a matter of me doing the same things as before...and trying to make new memories filled with love. What I'd really like to do is go into hibernation and be woken up when it is my birthday.
Posted by bbarton at November 2, 2006 11:10 AMibeejd - I'm sure that you're right, on all counts! :)
Posted by: Bob on November 3, 2006 11:27 AM
I have spent many many years hibernating from holidays...its a very hard habit to break. This year I am going to attempt the "flurry of activities"....I would suggest NOT giving them up. Its much easier to keep them going then to try to start after shutting them down! At least for me. I have a funny feeling your wife would be very sad if she thought you were not smiling and laughing.
Posted by: ibeejd on November 3, 2006 11:19 AM