July 12, 2006
How do you feel or How should I feel.
I find that I'm insulating myself from feeling. I think that is because no matter what I feel to start I end up feeling sad and depressed.
If I'm happy and having fun I feel sad because I think how Mary would have liked it or that she would have laughed when I told her the story.
I still find that's what I miss the most...someone to talk to about whatever. The times I resented her 'bothering' me when I was working when she just wanted to chat nearly breaks my heart now.
Posted by bbarton at July 12, 2006 12:05 PM
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Just letting you know, I can relate....Let me start by saying....it is totally not the same losing a wife as losing a grandparent....but Papa died seven years ago, and today I caught myself thinking I should call his old phone number in Florida....just to remind myself that he isn't there. Call it denial, or just plain not dealing with it, or whatever.....but it seems like he has just gone on a trip....and he'll be back soon....then I miss him all over again......
Posted by: Hil on July 13, 2006 03:06 PM
Just letting you know, I can relate....Let me start by saying....it is totally not the same losing a wife as losing a grandparent....but Papa died seven years ago, and today I caught myself thinking I should call his old phone number in Florida....just to remind myself that he isn't there. Call it denial, or just plain not dealing with it, or whatever.....but it seems like he has just gone on a trip....and he'll be back soon....then I miss him all over again......
Posted by: Hil on July 13, 2006 03:06 PM