6 Kids, 3 cats, 1 dog, Mom, and Dad

Things I think about...

During Mary's first week at home, after finding out that her condition was terminal, we almost acted like things were going to be ok, even though we knew that they were not. My son's room-mate has a friend that is a professional photographer. He came to our home and took all kinds of photos, in our bedroom, of Mary with our kids, her parents, siblings, and with just me and her.

As I sat on the bed with her, and she cuddled into my arms she said, "I've missed being in your arms." She had surgery just before that and physical contact was painful...but for a brief time we were able to be in each other's arms and it just felt so right.

It is a memory that is comforting and painful at the same time, and a feeling that I miss so much.

I also realized, after that session, just how sick my Mary was because it completely wore her out, and all she did was sit up in bed and have people on the bed with her. When everyone left she started to cough, which always made her get sick, and then slept for a long time.

I can't bring myself to look at those pictures but I know some day I will and be glad for them.

Posted by bbarton at June 26, 2006 12:12 PM