What am I supposed to be doing? I miss Mary so much. I've never lacked for ideas but she kept them on the sane and practical route. I think about doing things and then spend an insane amount of time wondering "What Would Mary Do?" (please don't make any bumper stickers).
I'm having some work done in the yard and I'm sure she'd be happy to see that it is getting done. We're going on a family trip and I've been giving financial assistance to our almost-flown-the-coop children. I play with the ones that are still home and make them nutritious meals. We laugh, listen to music, and watch TV shows together. I think she'd be happy with how I'm doing.
But what I keep thinking is...Thank God we lived life while Mary was alive. We got married young and had children when we were children. We went on family vacations when we couldn't afford it...really...but the memories of those trips sustain us still. We didn't delay life until 'some day'...some day when the kids are grown, when we have more money, when we no longer had to work...we just went ahead and lived.
We lived...and Mary was the catalyst for it all and I don't want to lose that. It came naturally to her and I have to work at it but I know that the best way to keep her memory alive is to live life to the fullest.
Thank God we lived, and thank you, Mary, for making sure we did.
Posted by bbarton at May 9, 2006 01:35 PM
That's it ... I'm cheating and double-submitting you for the RSFBA award ... Seriously, you're doing good - you can see it in all the smiles in the photos you post. Mary IS proud of ya.
Now when are we going to get more posts about cleavage and such? Don't you need an "obligatory male cad" post to balance things out? :)
Posted by: geo on May 9, 2006 03:34 PM