I had a strange dream the other night. I walked into a jewelry store and when I approached the counter a beautiful woman came up to wait on me.
She asked if she could help me and I told her I was there to buy something for my wife. Suddenly, I said to myself in the dream "Wait a minute! Mary's dead!" and then I woke up.
I'm not delusional, but I get the feeling that she's going to walk in the door or call me up and we'll pick up where we left off when this all started a year and a half ago.
On the other hand, I look around me and know that Mary wanted me to go on living and I've started to do that too. I moved our bed, bought new sheets, and I'm planning a family vacation for July.
But it all just doesn't seem real...
Posted by bbarton at March 26, 2006 08:29 PMAfter my Mom died I kept having these dreams that she was alive and I could see her but she just wouldn't talk to me no matter how much I begged. I think because I just wanted to hear her voice soooo much. It's hard isn't it?
Posted by: kari on March 27, 2006 05:52 PM
I bet it feels weird expecting Mary to walk through the door but in another way it's really nice - I guess it means in someways she's still with you. Where are you planning to go on Vacation?
Posted by: Karen on March 27, 2006 10:33 AM